Passing Me By

"Damn I wish I wasn't such a wimp" - Pharcyde

Familial Frustrations

Just had a convo. w/my Mom. She's got a bad habit of not listening to what I'm trying to imply or what I'm saying. I get a little worried when it comes around to money. It's just her now, and while my Dad could have diverted funds differently, he was as a whole good with money. She is too, but I guess I'm just worried that she's going to come across problems that I don't know if I can help with... her being retired, having to pay for the house, the state of the economy, etc. I wish I could do more, maybe I'll have to start calling home more often just so I know what's going on.

My own finances are all fucked up too. I just signed up for Quicken's online application, and wow, I'm not stacking any money. It's pretty sickening. It seems like every month, something comes up that just kills any chance I've got to save. Why can't months happen where I've got X amount going to rent, bills, etc., Y amount going to gas, entertainment, and Z NOT going to random costs that pop up. Fuck!

I really miss having my Dad around. I listened to Atmosphere's "Caved In" the other day, and it just reminded me that he's not here anymore. I'm sure we'd bicker like we usually do, haha, but I don't care. Hope he's at least happy to see me putting that college degree to use.